i've offically lost my mind.

i'm down, way down, i couldn't get any lower unless i was dead. i feel such emotional pain that i wish i was at moments. i can't even understand it.

i've been plagued by these spells every couple months for the past little while. i get depressed, i flip out on everyone, i cry, i yell at myself, i get sick. i get confused, i lose my mind. i usually make up some excuse for it, like "im just stressed out," or "its cause brittany died..."

this time. i'm at a loss for making anything up. i truly have no idea whats going on inside me. it's such a deep pain, like it runs through every aspect of my life, every bone, every vessel..... everywhere.
suddenly everything around me crumbled.

sup with you?

I had a dream.
See you at the pole happened,
but before hand we went outside to see who was there.
A bunch of people were, populars, goths, janitors!
I got lots of hugs.
I had a dream.